There are different ways to hurt. You can hurt people without putting your hands on them. You can even do it unintentionally; John thought he was doing right by me when he hurt me. Hell, I thought he was doing right by me.

[She lays her hands flat on the table. They hurt less that way.]

This is pretty much the third thing you need to know. I'll never tell you Ladd didn't love you back. I believe he did love you, as much as he was able to love. That doesn't mean he didn't have a fucked up way of showing it, or that it wasn't twisted--but you can acknowledge that and still love him. Like I said, it's about change. Not elimination.