The temptation isn't even there anymore. My game burned it out of me.

I didn't deal, if that's what you're implying.

[There was that whole incident where she convinced her fuckbuddy to rob the drug clinic run by John's wife, Jill, which resulted in the miscarriage of their child when Jill was hit with a door. That is something she'll keep to herself forever, out of shame and overwhelming guilt.]