} 050 - [VIDEO] - Locked to all wardens who were once inmates.

[creatingalegacy]

[Amanda is seated on her bed, leaning forward slightly as she looks into the camera, lower arms on her knees.]

I want to hear from all the wardens who used to be inmates. Particularly the ones who swore up and down that they'd never become wardens.

What made you change your minds, and how the hell did you adjust?

[Perhaps surprisingly, she looks completely sincere.]

Comments

[Private]

[yourunichase]

It isn't fucking easy, Amanda. It's better now, but it's still not fucking easy.

[Private]

[creatingalegacy]

Of course it isn't easy. I don't expect it to be. It's still gotta be easier than sitting around and living with it, not doing anything.

I can't do that anymore. The guilt is too fucking suffocating.

Private]

[yourunichase]

Things they don't tell you about the whole "redeeming you" bullshit: the guilt is a killer. I think it's why we stick around.

It's probably why we make better wardens too. We get it.

[Private]

[creatingalegacy]

Yeah, well, hopefully whoever I get will accept that I understand where they're coming from.

I wasn't exactly ideal in that regard.

[Private]

[yourunichase]

Eventually they will. None of us are fucking good at accepting this.

Re: [Private]

[creatingalegacy]

How long did it take you?

[Private]

[yourunichase]

Four wardens and a year.

[Private]

[creatingalegacy]

Christ. I've had five of 'em over the last two years.

[Private]

[yourunichase]

It helps to know that as inmates, we're fucking assholes, Amanda.

Re: [Private]

[creatingalegacy]

I've gone above and beyond the call of "asshole." You ever blind any of your wardens?

[Private]

[yourunichase]

Turned one over to the Borg.