} 050 - [VIDEO] - Locked to all wardens who were once inmates.

[creatingalegacy]

[Amanda is seated on her bed, leaning forward slightly as she looks into the camera, lower arms on her knees.]

I want to hear from all the wardens who used to be inmates. Particularly the ones who swore up and down that they'd never become wardens.

What made you change your minds, and how the hell did you adjust?

[Perhaps surprisingly, she looks completely sincere.]

Comments

Private - he is sad forever

[inhumandog]

This place can make you feel so helpless. I miss him, too, and yet there is not a damn thing I can do to bring him back.

Private - Amanda knows that feeling :c

[creatingalegacy]

Have you decided on a deal yet? You could use it to follow him to wherever he is.

Private- SO SAD

[inhumandog]

Yes, I have a deal. I've been thinking of changing it but...if he's dead...

I'm not so romantic as to want death because Rex is dead. [LIES.]

Re: Private- SO SAD

[creatingalegacy]

Then you're lucky. I live with that feeling every day. It's a fight for me, to want to live for someone's memory instead of following them into death.

And Rex wouldn't want you to die over him.

If you graduate more than one inmate...can you get more than one deal?

[Meaning he could use one to make sure Rex is alive, and the other to go to him.]

Private

[inhumandog]

I can't tolerate being here that long.

Private

[creatingalegacy]

Oh.

[Amanda is of two minds about that: part of her understands completely, not able to blame him, because to stay when he couldn't tolerate it would be incredibly harmful to him; the other part doesn't understand, because she'd suffer hell for a near-eternity for the people she loved.]

He wouldn't blame you for that. Not with how much he loathed this place.

[Which she honestly believes, regardless of her own conflicting opinions.]

Private

[inhumandog]

He wanted to get out.

But not like this. [There's a pause.] Fuck this place. [He clicks the communicator off to go throw a proper fit, but he'll reply after to anything she adds.]

Re: Private

[creatingalegacy]

Then keep believing he's alive out there, somewhere.

That kept me going for the better part of a year.

Private

[inhumandog]

Optimism was never a strength of mine.

Private

[creatingalegacy]

Same here. I think was a result of how much I needed to believe it.

Private

[inhumandog]

Needed? There's only one thing I need and it's not misplaced faith that the universe is good.